April 08, 2014
I got scammed by a man that said he was a God fearing man. He said all the right things. I thought he would be perfect man to eventually marry and he would be the man that take us in a Godly direction. He was all about his close and personal relationship with God. I felt I could trust him. Then he needed financial help. So I prayed about it and was not sure what to do but I felt that I loved him and he swore to pay me back. I sent him the money. Of course a little later he needed more money and then more. I ended up maxing out two credit cards and I took out a 4 year loan to help him out. I lost my husband about 2 years ago and I thought this was the man to spend the rest of my life with. He has now disappeared with all my money. I told him that I had no way to pay back the loan but he swore that he would be doing it, that I had nothing to worry about. I am $9,000 in debt for him and in deep financial trouble. I have tried calling him, text messinging him and emailing him with no response. I truly thought that God had lead me to this man. I now feel like the dumbest woman on the face of the earth. I am so ashamed. I thought I was helping those who couldn't help themselves. All this to say that I am in desperate trouble for money. I need prayer that he will do the right thing and send me back my money. I know this is not what scammers do but I know that God works miracles. I need a miracle in a big way. How can someone that claims to love the Lord be so dishonest. I am 51 years old and I should know better but I am a person that leaps with faith. Please pray that he will do what he promised to do and pray that he does not do this to other women. I don't know what to do. I am in such trouble and all for trying to do what was right and help someone. I don't know how Christ can help with this but I need help so bad. Please pray.
April 07, 2014
In Jan of this year, my stepfather sustained significant injuries to his hands and foot which left him seriously ill, disabled and requiring assistance with all activities of daily living. The most unfortunate aspect of this was that my mother who was also disabled was extremely dependent on her caregiver. Of course her caregiver was her husband of 38 years, my stepfather. As anyone would guess, my mother was under a tremendous amount of stress and worry. My stepfather was home from a prolonged stay in the hospital for about a week when my mother unexpectantly passed away on Feb 19, 2014. The police asked my stepfather to leave his home and stay elsewhere while my mother's death was being investigated. Then, an investigator talked with me and stated that their house was too unkempt and not equipped for someone in his condition to live in. I agreed to displace my stepfather from his home until something could be figured out. Since then, he has been staying with different family members or with me, my daughter and my husband. Our home is cleaner and livable but it's not handicap accessible. We have stairs. Our porch is in need of repair. Our roof is leaking. We don't have the space he requires to get around with a walker. Our bathroom is not equipped for his bathing. Our house is too far away from his elderly mother who he incessantly worries about when he is away from her. I am trying my best to care for my stepfather but I don't have the necessary resources. My husband, daughter and I were barely making it from check to check before these events. I have had medical issues requiring hospitalization and surgeries since Jan. My stepfather doesn't have any health insurance or income. We are in the process of applying for his SSI/Disability and some food stamps. His meds cost over $400.00 a month on top of frequent visits to his doctors and work time I have lost. His home is an absolute disaster and as the investigator said, it is truly unlivable. There is a lot of the junk that has to be cleaned out and everything has to be cleaned up before we can even begin to evaluate if it can possibly be repaired or made handicap accessible for him to return home. I have started going through his home to store important stuff and remove hoarded items that are trash or just not worth keeping. It's a huge endeavor. I have spent many hours to find myself still looking at the room I started in that's still full of stuff I haven't gotten to yet. I know I can't undo years of hoarding in a few days but it's so gut wrenchingly overwhelming and distressing to say the least. Plus, I'm having to deal with the fact that I allowed them to live in such a mess and didn't demand that they let me or someone else do something to improve things. I had just accepted that they lived in a way that I would not choose for myself. I used to give them every bit of extra money that I had every week, but after my daughter was born, I had to change my focus to my daughter and our home. I would still buy them things occasionally. Now that my mother is gone, I realize my decisions were selfish and I should have been doing more for them and maybe my mother would have had more joy and less worry in her life. Being a bit obsessive compulsive, I once was very capable of organizing and managing life's challenges. Now, I'm having immense difficulty coping with even small, every day tasks. I feel as though I am just going through the motions of life like I'm stuck in a thick, never ending fog. I can't sleep. I can't stop crying. I can't concentrate. I'm disoriented. I can't remember stuff so I have to keep lists and notes. I have little interest in things that used to make me happy. I feel like I'm only a shell of my former self before the loss of my mother. I let my mother down while she was alive and now I can't provide the things that my stepfather needs either. I don't know what to do. We need help. I have begged others for assistance without any relief. I can't keep this pace. Please pray for me and my family.
April 07, 2014
please continue to pray for my marriage and my spouse to realize the love we have for one another. I feel God gave me a word of promise but I need some prayers for strength and belief